Chaos and Charm

Sometimes I think my inner child and I are in a toxic relationship.
She wants attention at the worst possible times — like right before a deadline or when I’m trying to sleep.
She’s loud, dramatic, and clearly allergic to logic.
And honestly? Same.

But lately, I’ve been trying to reparent her.
To give her what she needed back then — patience, love, consistency, and the kind of reassurance that doesn’t come with conditions.
Except it’s hard to reparent chaos when you’re still a little chaotic yourself.
Ya know what I’m sayin’?

So we compromise.
She gets candy and I get to avoid a full emotional meltdown before noon.
Progress.

There’s this myth that healing means you become soft and serene — like a walking Pinterest board with affirmations and lavender epsom salt baths.
But healing sometimes looks like talking to your inner child in the car in the parking lot like,
“Look, we can’t spiral and cry over that again. We’ve done the character development. Let’s move on.”

I’ve learned that reparenting isn’t about being perfect — it’s about showing up.
It’s apologizing to yourself for what you didn’t know before,
and then doing better, even when your old instincts are trying to creep back in.

Sometimes that means giving myself grace.
Sometimes it means grounding myself instead.
Like, “No, we’re not texting them back again. Go meditate or something.”

Healing doesn’t mean you stop being triggered — it means you stop unpacking and redecorating every time you are.

So now, when my inner child shows up with tears and attitude,
I take a deep breath, offer her sweets, and say,
“It’s ok, mamita, I’ve got us this time.”

Because I’m still learning how to mother this mini me of a mess —
with humor, compassion, and the occasional side-eye.

Turns out, reparenting the chaos just means learning to love every version of yourself —
even the one who still gets overwhelmed trying to figure out what to wear when she’s not living her usual hermit life.

Because reparenting isn’t fixing — it’s forgiving.
It’s realizing you don’t have to earn the peace you’re trying to give yourself.

And on the days you slip back into old habits, you just hum a little reminder…
🎵 “We’re not broken — just bent.” 🎵
Shout-out to Pink. 💗